Editing PERSONAL NOTES:The Family (section)

===Year of the Sun 1236 Chance 2===
Finally it is over. I reported to Hakem yesterday morning. As I guessed, he was hurt that is was Anis. He didn’t say as much but I could see it in his eyes. I gave details on Zafar’s dealings and a map of the grounds. The Family arrived last night during a meeting between Zafar, Anis, and me.

Zafar was shocked. He actually made an attempt to save me, not knowing I helped to stage this. In his sick way he cared for me. He ran to where I stood and made to block me from the men of Al’Hamzah. The last thing on his face was hate for me. As I ran my blade through his heart I told him this was the plan all along. And once I was subjected to his touch, my only wish was to be the one to take his life. No woman would have to tolerate him again. He died staring me in the face.

Anis was executed by Waseem. The bodies were left in the study to be found by the servants. We all know the servants will spread word of why these two died.

For now I get to rest. Waseem came to see me and make sure my apartments were secured again. He thanked me for the task I performed for the Family. And he thanked me for the service I performed for him in giving a favorable report of Zaina. They are expecting their first child and he is very happy.

Then he apologized for what I was requested to do for the Family. He would never have wished that on me. Although he said I proved his father right, I have nerves of steel. He never thought I would kill Zafar myself and most definitely not while I looked him in the eye. My duty to Al’Hamzah was well served. My loyalty and fidelity would never be questioned. It gave me pride and sorrow to hear those words. I never imagined I would kill anyone. Nothing in my life prepared me for that. But nothing in my life prepared me for Zafar either. (Between these pages is a thin medallion that Zafar always wore. It is used to remind her of the first life she took and the pain that can be caused by a single man.)

And now I am left wondering what will become of me. The whole city will know that I work for the Al’Hamzah. I can no longer gather information for them here.