PERSONAL NOTES:Among the Little People

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Among the Little People

Year of the Sun 1251 Fidelity 1

I have reached Ferrodyne, unfortunately not under the best circumstances. After I separated from the Halflings I traveled with I fell ill. I thought I was going to die in the Hills. Thankfully I was close to Ferrodyne and a Gnome found me. He had to get one of the “Big Folk” from town to come carry me. They have nursed me well and I am recovering slowly. This has been the first day I have been strong enough to write.

Year of the Sun 1251 Fidelity 20

I am mostly recovered. I get weak easily now. My illness seems to have reduced my stamina. Hopefully that returns to me. The clerics still aren’t sure what made me ill. It is very interesting to see Gnomish clerics argue over an illness. They talk at the most amazing speeds. Of course I can’t understand a word they are saying but their expressions say much.

I am forty today. The year’s runaway before me. I am no closer today to making this right then I was the day I left my home. I hope to learn much here in Ferrodyne. The Gnomes are wise people, if a little scattered.

I have taken up semi-permanent residence at Big People’s Inn on Quiet Hill Street. There is an interesting collection of folk here. Most of them are entrepreneurs looking for the next great invention to come out of The Gnomish Ministry of Engineering. There is always someone trying to profit off these little people.

I spend a great deal of time with the clergy. The Gnomish outlook on a religion is very different than that taught in the rest of the world. It is fascinating to have open debate on what the Librera says.

Year of the Sun 1252 Bounty 19

Harvest Day

I have been in Ferrodyne a little over a year now. The Gnomes really are quite friendly. But they are definitely all a little crazy I think.

There was a huge feast today because of Harvest Day. (Although they will use any good excuse to have a large gathering.) This was my second Harvest Day with them. This time I participated as member of their community instead of as a guest. They can’t decide if I am clergy or a scholar so I get counted as both. I was even asked to say a prayer of thanks to the Sun. I couldn’t refuse.

After the primary meal was finished I sang for them as an extra way of saying thanks. It was the first time I performed since I have come here. I imagine I will be doing this much more now. They were very pleased with me.

When I wasn’t singing and praying I spent most of my time with Skorowvar Laughingwhisper. In common his name means wise, loving jester. Quite the mouth full, but fitting. He is a member of The Linguistics Council. He has been helping me with translations for many months now. He is a joy to be around and his children brighten my days.

Year of the Sun 1258 Spindle 26

There was another fire today. The fire brigade gets a lot of use. Lundalmikkneb blew up his work-shop again. He should really quit playing with explosive powders. This is the fifth time he as destroyed his shop. At least it helps to keep the builders busy.

It was almost a very bad situation this time. There were children playing near there when it blew. Thankfully no one was seriously hurt but a couple of children got pinned under heavy debris. There was a human man that just came into town that was able to help. If not for him I fear the children may have perished. He was very large and none of us present had the strength to get the debris moved quickly. He has a kind face.

Year of the Sun 1260 Harmony 12

The human that came to town in my last entry has stayed on. His name is Darion. He has never given a surname and we have never asked. He has a quiet way about him. He has been helping the builders. I rent a room to him. After my first couple years here the community insisted that I build a house.

He is a good tenant and is a great help around here. I don’t know anything about maintaining this place. He doesn’t have to pay anything as long as he keeps things up and brings in game. I tend the garden and prepare meals. It works out well for us.

He is a little intimidating at times. He is very large and I have seen severe scars on his torso. He could snap me like a twig if he got angry. I’ve never seen him loose his temper but it looks like he controls himself almost in the same way that I do. It makes me wonder about his past but neither one of us asks questions about the other.

Year of the Sun 1260 Penitence 31

Night of the Moon

It is almost more then I can bear. Having a man so close but not able to touch him. And he seems like he could use some comfort. Darion’s eyes are filled with pain. I ache to see it. That’s why it drives me to distraction not to be able to touch him. He needs something, someone to take that darkness from him. I know I’m not the one to do that but I want to.

I spend most of my days in theological contemplation but he enters my thoughts often. He has that haunted look that so many of the children had in the Chapel. I want to reach out and see if he has the power in him as well.

I almost went to him tonight after the celebration. The wine I drank didn’t help. I’m glad I didn’t cross that line but it was close. I danced with him. It was the first time I’ve ever touched him in anyway. He was so warm. I could feel the strength in his hands; they engulfed mine as if I were a child. I wanted him so badly but I don’t think he would welcome me.

Year of the Sun 1262 Vigilance 28

It has been more than elven years now. I love these little people. Skorowvar and his family have become such a part of my life. They descend on Darion and me regularly for dinner, completely unannounced. Thankfully they invite us just as often. I have become Aunt Baelwren to all of his children.

Once a week all of the local children come to my house for story day. They are a joy to have around. But they are a handful. When any of them fall ill I am called to come and entertain and help keep watch until they are on their feet again. I have spent many a day sitting by a sick child.

I continue to watch Darion. I still long to make that darkness go away. But it has lessened in his time here. He has opened up and takes a great deal of merriment form the stunts the children pull. Not to mention the antics they use to get my attention.

Year of the Sun 1266 Fidelity 21

I wish I could quit having birthdays. I think they are unlucky. I gave into my desires. What an idiot. He left. I awoke this morning and he was gone. I know men can feel my power when they are intimate with me. That had to be what scared him off. Idiot! I should have stuck to my plan not to get involved.

It’s been so many years though. So many years since I’ve had a lover and so many years that I have watched him. It made my feelings to strong and my power ran hard. It intensifies things. Idiot! I don’t know what possessed me. Lord he felt good. But now he is gone and all of his things with him. Idiot! ORB give me the strength not to be so stupid again.

Year of the Sun 1266 Prosperity 1

Darion came back. I was right though. I scared him. He admitted he has some power of his own. He has never pursued it though. He learned to control it in a rudimentary way but he was never trained as I was. The scars on his body are from his father trying to beat it out of him. He ran away from home when he was very young to get away from the abuse. By then he had control over himself.

I told him I would train him if he would like. I didn’t tell him much of my past. Only that I was trained and could help him. I still have to keep my secrets. If it was only myself to consider I would tell him more but there are others involved.

He has gladly accepted my offer to train him. We begin tomorrow night. I hope it is a help to him.